Celluloid Yume

• Floral EVERYTHING
• Floaty, gauzy dresses
• Patches of light on hardwood floors
• Pastels (this is shocking coming from me, little Miss Former Uber-Goth Extraordinaire) I like looking at them, not wearing them. They look terrible with my olive skin tone
• Flannel shirts
• Bookmaking 
• Egon Schiele
• Couture fashion (the silhouettes are so sexy, and the sculptural elements make for great negative space)
• Watercolor
• Girly stuff
• French paintings from the 1700’s

I guess being in love brings out the desire to wear floral patterns and coo over puppies and kittens. Well, I already did the latter, but you get the idea XD

I’m not a tomboy in any sense of the word, but I’m usually so guarded with my emotions that I tend not to let a lot of stuff show through, even when I’m happy. The way I see it is that if I let my guard down, people can come right on in and rip me to a pulpy, bloody mess. My last relationship pretty much ruined any trust I had left in me, and my guards went up like the Great Wall of China x 10. Only recently have I been feeling comfortable enough to start letting them down. I guess finding new and different things utterly engrossing comes with that territory. Plus, like I said before, being in love has something to do with it, too.

I will always have my guards in place, even if I am completely comfortable around somebody. It’s something I have to work on, but I’ve gotten a lot better.